Don’t match the physical description for a bull
Ok so this is a weird one. I just have no one or place to say this to really say this to.
Basically for as long as I can remember I have loved cuckold/NTR porn. There’s a joke in the hentai community about how everyone hates NTR because people typically imagine themselves as the cuck. I’m the exact opposite, have always love loved loved that porn because I’ve always imagined myself as the bull. The idea of stealing someone’s girl (in fantasies) or IRL having her sexually prioritize me over her partner, the person that she loves, because I can just give her something so primal that her husband can’t so she’s willing to break convention/tradition (monogamy) to be with me. The idea gets me so hard/turn off. Even in my sex life I am into very degrading, and cruel stuff; psychological humiliating is one of my favorite kinks.
All of this sounds great, until I realize that I will never be one because I don’t exactly match the physical description for a bull. I used to think being a bull was psychological and I’m sure it is but there also seems to be certain physical requirements that just come along with the territory, like height and size. As someone who is neither (5’7 with an average size) it’s hard to imagine anyone taking me seriously as a bull. Especially since size superiority/comparison/humiliation is one of the cornerstones of bulling. And in pretty sure the height also helps reinforce that. So I guess unless I find a midget couple with a micro, but other than that I just don’t see how this would ever work for someone who was genetically “gifted” certain qualities.
I’m not asking for advice on how to find a couple or anything like that. I know this isn’t a looking for sub. (Although if you had any tips or suggestion for my situation I wouldn’t say no, even if that advice is just “tough luck, try to get whatever satisfaction from porn you can and try to be happy” lmao.) And I honestly have never tried given what I mentioned. IDK I just felt like this would be one of the few place that would at least somewhat understand what I’m feeling.