The Night Before (CW: Dysphoria, CNC, Ignoring Bottom Dysphoria
Wasn't sure how hard to go in the dysphoria of it all, but its still there
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I let out a soft whine, squirming as she holds me from behind. The blindfold hadn't helped. The bondage hadn't helped. Hell even the feeling of my Mistresses firm hold had barely helped.
Her voice is soft, barely a whisper as her words tickle my ear.
*"*Hush now kitten. I know what you want, but we can't exactly have you go into surgery tomorrow with bruises criss-crossing your thighs - even if i want to. But there is other kinds of pain"
I feel her shift a little behind me, my protests dying before they fully form with a finger to my lips.
"Shh baby girl. I know how excited you are. How nervous. How you've been counting down the days until tomorrow since you first got booked in. But you need to sleep"
I feel her hands tracing down my body - only to stop just on the edge of my panties. I flinch, just a little. Her other hand slips under my pajama top. When she speaks again her voice has a hint of darkness to it and it sends a shiver down my spine.
"I have a solution for you pet. One that will allow you to sleep. But I'm going to take something from you. Something that you've kept from me"
Hey hands slips under my panties, and I jump as her hand brushes my - I shake my head, squirming in her hold, unable to push her hands away. I open my mouth to protest only for her other hand to slip in, I can't help but to suckle.
"Pet." Her voice is soft, and firm, contradictory. A warning and a promise. "You know as well as I do that after you come, tears in your eyes sleep will find you. And well... You've kept this from me all this time. And It's my last chance to claim you this way."
I feel her hand tighten, her hand already lubed up as it slips around my - I whine, squirming and suckling even more, protests unintelligible around her fingers.
"Pet. Im taking this. No more rutting into a pillow. No more letting you finish yourself off because you don't want me to touch you there. From now, your orgasms are mine. This last one with your pathetic little girl cock, and every single one when your pretty little cunt is healed"
Her hands begin moving, stroking her movements slow, and purposeful. My wriggle back into get is met by a sharp pinch, tears springing to my eyes from the pain.
"Pet, I've taken your sight. So you don't have to watch. I've taken your hands, they do look so pretty in those cuffs. And judging by how you're still suckling my fingers, I've taken your voice too. And I'm taking this"
A moan escapes around her fingers. I'm not sure if its from what her hands are doing or what's she's saying.
"Oh Pet, you really aren't going to last long are you? You're twitching"
I feel my cheeks flush shamefully at her chiding. My mind awash in shame and arousal. I feel her hand around my - my girl cock move faster and I know she's right. Tears flow more freely but I can't bring myself to pull away. It happens fast, and I'm buckling into her hand. I know she's saying words but I can't hear them. Dimly I'm aware of her switching the hands in my mouth, the taste causing a soft moan to escape my lips as i slowly regain my hearing
"... girl. You're my good girl. My best girl. I'm going to take off the blindfold now okay honey? And take my hands back. You can have them back later, I just want to check on you"
I nod blindly into her hand, whining as she takes my hand, and wincing as I struggle to adjust to even the soft light of the hotel bedroom. I blink up at her, at my Mistress, everything blurry from tears
"You okay Baby girl?"
I nod, wordlessly, my brain still struggling to articulate.
"You sleepy?" Her tone is knowing, almost teasing.
I nod, again, unable to quite form words
"You want something to suckle on baby girl?" Her tone is softer now, but a nod is all it takes to pull me to her chest. Her hands in my hair as I suckle on her breast, blinking as tiredness rushes to take me
"My beautiful brave girl. I'm so proud of you. I knew all you needed as a little bit of shame and a good orgasm, my dirty little masochist. Shhh sleep now."
I blink, looking up at my Mistress, breaking from my suckling to say what I realise are the only words I've said this tonight. "T-thankyou mistress" I stare up at her until she guides me back down, and I close my lips back around her nipple.
"Its okay baby girl. You needed it. You needed the sleep it would allow you to have. And well, I've wanted to take that from you since we met." I can hear the glee in her voice, but everything is already fading "Oh, these next few months are going to be so hard for both of us. No play, but all the more time for us to plan for the next time."
My attempts to pull back are halted by her hands in my hair. Blinking again as sleep calls to me. And I hear her one last time before sleep pulls me in.
"Sleep pet. I've got you"