Venting my frustration
I can't keep searching for a Dom. I just can't do it anymore. It's taken a toll on me. I either get ghosted, I'm not attracted to the person, or during the vetting stage all I'm getting is red flags. I don't have the strength to keep trying and keep searching and keep finding fake Doms. In my search for a real Dom I've got an STD. I've been abused. I am physically and mentally drained. Maybe I should just find a vanilla relationship or maybe I should give up on finding any kind of relationship. Being without a Dom makes me feel less of a sub. I know I'm more than a sub as a person but that part of me that wants to submit to somebody I love is unfulfilled. I think it's time that I just give up and if the right person comes along it'll be a gift from God. Just needed to vent again. I think it's time I take a break