Where can I find a group of kindhearted, unselfish, humorous, somewhat intelligent meth addicts who, most importantly, are fully in possession of a decent moral compass?
I’m a 40 year old female, born and raised in a beach suburb of LA, who loves to do almost all drugs recreationally but has, out of choice, become reliant on slamming meth daily. I say out of choice bc the reason I am doing it is bc I have severe epilepsy that forces me to take downers in order to stay alive and those pills make me so tired they had me in a constant daze and stuck in bed 18-20 hours per day for years unable to live any sort of life…until someone introduced me to slamming meth. I also have ADHD so I am not sure I’ve ever actually felt “high” the way others describe it from meth; except maybe from like 30 minutes after a really strong shot and I haven’t felt that rush since like the first month I did it; I’d say meth just makes me feel like how I’d feel if I were a normal person. When you are someone who injects meth daily and want to be able to be open about who you are then groups of meth addicts are really the only people you can hang out with without being judged, shunned and possibly reported to the police for possessing illegal narcotics. My problem is that I am yet to find a group of people who do meth but are still fully trustworthy. What is it about doing meth that takes away people’s ability to do to others as you would like them to do to you? Why does stealing from others seem to suddenly not be something that just feels innately wrong when one is doing meth? Why, when someone has enough energy to sit and try to figure out how to unlock a bike for 5 hours straight, do they not have the ability to put that time and effort towards doing something to make themselves a legal income? Why does meth seem to cause a collapse of general morals for the average user? I do not understand and would honestly just like someone to explain to me. I would also really love if anyone could tell me if I will ever be able to find other people like me who I can be myself around but not have to constantly watch my back. Does that even exist anywhere out there? Thank you for anyone who has actually taken the time to read this and is willing to shed some light on anything for me. I will be forever grateful.