u/meffreestylist

Just wanted to write about it. I can't afford my Vyvanse script so I decided to experiment with this. Not happy about it, I feel like I did something cosmically wrong. This maybe feels like 10-15mg Vyvanse at best. The fact it's an underground drug is what makes it so sketchy, I'm not sure how much of it is d-meth but testimonials vouched for the batch I purchased as being good. The way people describe having to take substantially more orally than an equivalent Desoxyn dosage is telling that it's probably most often racemic or cut.

I tested it with Marquis, Liebermann, Simon's and Froehde, and also for fent just to be safe. I'm treating it with extreme reverence, dosing only orally and at therapeutic ranges. I am not knowledgeable about reagent testing but a small amount reacted very strongly with the exact colour change I saw with pure d-meth in the guide I followed. I'm taking it with a grain of salt though.

It tasted bitter like people described, very very similar to the taste of phenethylamine but actually less disgusting perhaps only because I have to ingest 0.2% the amount by weight.

Just taking it slow, I started ingesting 1-2mg specks every half hour, I'm somewhere above 5mg at this point. I am very sensitive to the feeling of dextroamphetamine but I did not take enough. I haven't reached the point of any speediness in my brain nor body. I like my body feeling alive and active, feeling my spine suddenly straighten, getting a bit sweaty and ready for action, and having my airways open up where every breath feels amazing. It's my favorite side effect of amphetamine but I heard it's reduced relatively with meth due to it being less stimulating to the body/~66% the affinity for norepinephrine. I feel like my brain is quieter, I'm in a deep meditative focus, and I'm not as emotionally reactive like I was earlier today in amphetamine withdrawal. I don't have an increase in desire to move or do things. In fact I feel infinitely more still in my body than I am on Vyvanse. I feel slightly more wakeful and alert. It feels like my nose unblocked significantly, but it's not the 4D breathing I get on Vyvanse. A bit on edge but it could be the caffeine and nicotine which is very likely overshadowing the effects of the small dose. I don't actually have an increase in nicotine cravings from baseline which I get horribly on any dose of Vyvanse above 30mg.

I was hesitant to even take it for a week but curiosity got the best of me. Worst case scenario, it's possible I may like dextroamph better and if so, it would still be a good learning experience to get a bit familiar with meth to know the difference first hand.

I feel like carefully going up in dosage and orally only, keeping that gross stigma in my mind about it, and the fact I have years of memories of the honeymoon phase with Vyvanse and now some amphetamine tolerance, I will avoid any honeymoon phase with this stuff and potentially avoid a greater attachment to this than to my prescription.

I don't recommend anyone try this, even now this goes against my gut feeling, but I'm not yet in a position to give up amphetamines entirely as much as my heart wants to.

Maybe tomorrow I'll try a measured 10-15mg. We will see. I miss my Vyvanse, it's good enough and gets the job done.