How do you deal with depression/mental health issues as a Dom?
Like the titles states, how do you deal with bouts of depression when you're a dominant? My last relationship failed cos I was in this terrible bout of derpession and needed some time off from Domming, as I didn't feel like I could control my sub when my own mind was spiralling. This led to my sub feeling that I was no longer interested in her as I was not initiating scenes anymore and put off playing to a time when I was feeling better. It made her feel like I was not paying enough attention to her needs or that I was not interested in Domming her anymore. I tried to tell her it wasn't that, it was just me going through this bout of depression and I would soon be better like before (I've dealt with this for more than a decade now) but I guess it lasted a bit too long. We ended things as she said she didn't view me in that light anymore and just looked at me as friend now.
I feel as a Dom, I'm supposed to guide and lead and be the dominant one, and then when I get these drops in mental health, it makes me feel less dominant, less of a man, like I am not supposed to have this depressive episode when I call myself a Dominant. It really fucks with my mind and makes me feel like maybe I'm not supposed to call myself a Dom if I have mental health issues and I could never be a good Dom. Has any other Dom dealt with something like this, or any sub who had a Dom who dealt with this? If so, how did you deal with this or these thoughts?