My bf has started getting cold feet about my gain an I’m feeling kinda betrayed
I’ve been debating making this post for awhile now cuz both my bf and I are pretty private with this stuff but I’m worried I’m going loose him tbh and I need some advice
We’ve both been into this scene since before we met, it’s always been a big part of our relationship, like it’s partly how we meet. He’s often teased me about wanting to make me immobile and I always play up how out of shape I am to tease him and push his buttons. We both definitely get off to the more morbid of gaining and can get into a lot of pretty dark role play with our fantasies
When we met I was already pretty big and over the years being together I packed on weight faster than either of us expected I would. Especially over the last 2ish years I’ve gone from “regular morbidly obese” to the kind of obese where I can barely make it up stairs, generally feel my body struggling, etc. Every doctor’s trip has been a celebration as my list of obesity related complications grows longer and longer. I’ve been loving every second of it and reveal in every new stretch mark and roll but I worry my bf isn’t feeling the same anymore. Recently our role play has been feeling like a lot less like a fantasy and more of a reality and as much I’ve been loving it I think it scares him
He’s been away on a lot of extended business trips recently and whenever he goes I make a point of stuffing myself as much as possible to surprise him with a “gift” when he gets back. Recently though he’s reactions have felt mixed, like he still goes crazy when I send him pics or talk about how much I’m stuffing myself but once he’s back home he seems to lose a lot of his enthusiasm. Like when we’re apart he’ll tease and humiliate me, harder than he used to even, but when he gets home he seems concerned about my health and a lot less excited in encouraging me to keep gaining. Like he still loves the fantasy of it all but doesn’t want to deal with the reality of it’s complications
Last week I discovered I had finally broken 500 pounds yet I still haven’t told him for fear he’ll suggest I stop gaining or something. 500 had be our shared fantasy for so long yet now that I’m actually there I’m almost embarrassed to tell him. I don’t think he’s cheating or anything but just worried about me yet I still can’t help but feel betrayed