Emotional crash after threesome
Hi, just wanted to have some advice.
I recently had my first FFM threesome with my fwb. I trusted him to pick someone I would get along with and I really looked forward to this a lot. The vibe was very good, very relaxed and low key. Note: the woman joining us was also someone he has been meeting up with, but I don't think it's his girlfriend.
Since we are into rope play (he's been my dom when we meet up), he tied me up and gave me a rope harness, while she watched. It was all very hot and I absolutely loved everything about the sex itself. We got into oral play and it was so exciting to do something for the first time again.
However, once we were finished, everything kinda backfired for me. First, we just remained on the seat and 'came down' a bit. We went upstairs to the bed and I lay in the middle, which was very uncomfortable. I also was not in any way coming down from my high, had heart palpitations and I started feeling very emotional. My two partners were already asleep. Now, I decided to leave the bed and sleep on the couch downstairs. I could not sleep at all, the pressure on my chest getting worse and I started doubting everything I did. I felt so unsure, insecure, emotional and most of all lonely as f*ck. During the sex I couldn't care less if they were kissing or playing, but every now and then i heard them kissing while I wasn't there and it made me feel SO much worse.
I left pretty early in the morning, said goodbye to them while they were cuddling in bed and they didn't really care. I left and cried in my car, still overstimulated from the night and very emotional.
Now I'm feeling better already but I don't know where this came from. Is this normal? Do I have to admit that I care more for him than I thought? Should I mention this to him? It's such a shame that the good sex was ruined for me by everything that happened after.