Questioning how submissive I am
I hope this is the correct place to post this. I am a 26 year old male who has been into spanking for as long as I can remember but haven’t ever explored it. I fantasize about being spanked by an attractive woman and believe I have found one but she is quite a distance away from me. I did recently go to see someone local but she did not look like her pictures and the quietness of the hotel sketched me out so I couldn’t follow through. I also don’t really know my pain tolerance as I haven’t been spanked since I was a child and I’m nervous it’s low and I won’t be able to take much. I don’t want to drive for hours to see this woman and flake out again or not be able to take much as she is not inexpensive. In general I’m not a very submissive person which is why this fantasy has always confused me. Is it common for non submissive guys to enjoy being spanked? I’m not the manliest of men but certainly am not submissive.