u/Striking_Speed_8341

After starting long term permanent chastity around 5 weeks ago, I am obsessed with being locked and denied by my husband. But after he went away a week ago for a few nights with friends, the thought of the friends seeing the keys to my chastity and questioning had a weird affect on me, where I actually wouldn't be bothered if people i know were to find out.

Is this weird that I now kind of want it to be known by others outside of my marriage to know that I'm permanently locked and denied through chastity? I don't know if this means I'm into some mild form of exhibitionism or something? Or is it just my horny state of mind taking over my common sense a little?

We know some people that have loosely told me that they're into being locked, but the comment wasn't direct enough to be able to seriously respond. But now I kinda want others to find out about me, to normalise it a little perhaps..

Any advice? If the opportunity comes up, should I let myself be outed?

I have been locking intermittently for about 12-14 years now, and while the devices have got so much better, my husband and I decided to keep me locked by default. Currently, I've been locked for 1.5 months and had one caged release so far while my husband has 7-10 a week. It's a dream come true from all my fantasies all those years ago!

However, I am currently in a cheap device from Etsy while I am waiting for my custom cage to be made. The seller has stopped selling the device I have now, so my link went work. But it was titled "3D modeling chastity Cage Device with Lock and 4 rings - Customised Cobra Male chastitycage".

Despite being an "old timer" in the world of chastity, I am recently getting new pains during nocturnal elections. It's a very specific point under the left testicle sack and feels like a line of pain, like something is pulling to the point it's very very painful. I've been able to manage it for the past few nights, but I thought it would be wise to ask others in my position if they've experienced this. What it feels like it could be is a specific vein being pulled extremely tight. But I'm not certain.

I've given measurements for the ball gap and the ring gap for my custom cage that I'm waiting for, so I hope this won't be an ongoing issue after that arrives. But that's still several weeks from now, and I am not able to be unlocked until then!

I have recently up sized the base ring and I wear a strap to hold the cage in place.

I'm sorry my description isn't great. It's very hard to explain this. Any advice or insights would be wonderful. Thank you!