10 years of chasing, woooow
M32. Many times I've just chalked it up to I'll never get over that last hump of pleasure, I'll always just enjoy the ride and get a good enough O. So many toys tried, a real Goldilocks story, invested in a hiSmith, many Amazon special dildos, pspot toys, a couple cheap vibrators, the knock off njoy wand (recently learned about the backwords trick, got super close) girthy, curvey, loonng toys, even a nice soft knotted cock like a filthy furry degenerate, of which I swear I'm knot.
Really this last year I've been focusing on rewiring my brain to stop using masturbation for dopamine and strictly for pleasure
But that meant I needed to start saving multiple days or a week at a time because of time restraints working every day of the week between two jobs and life and such, I can't just spend multiple nights in a row edging for hours. So I guess that's the honestly the real important part here because bet had I tried that part years ago I would have had a hands free by now, oh well.
This is gonna turn into word vomit, love to tell a story with details and I really wanna share this.
A week ago high with a fresh tax return deposit burning a hole in my pocket, buzzing from pleasure on a Sunday night spent edging for what felt like 4 hours, I decided it was time to spend money on a real vibrator. Knowing the reputation of lovense and reading many of other success stories I pulled the trigger on the edge 2, pre set up my account, got the app and all the bs squared away, I was excited.
First time, testing, getting a feel for patterns and tricky position but I really wasn't in the right head space I wanted it to be the puzzle piece too bad, in turn, unsuccessful and honestly disheartened. I wrote it off as a vibrator just wouldn't do it and the hunt would continue into just getting railed finally by real cock and letting an experienced prostate whisperer tickle my insides. Even set grindr up, the commit was real.
Couple days go by, it's Friday. Get home from work horny and I'm in a super good mood, hit the penjamma, tease self, oh the mood is definitely mooding, edge 2 fully charged and in, this time I found the right position that bulb was resting exactly on my prostate. I picked the boldest claim pattern "HFO guaranty". No changes, no pauses, my phone is out of reach, 60 minutes uninterrupted focused no hands play. So I hit play on the pattern and tried to play vampire crawlers and just see how far I could get, the run was actually cracked. I got 20 minutes in and lost all focus I was finally feeling the pressure and pleasure I've read other talk about, I was shaking my body is screaming this is it, all gas, let go, drown in the pleasure, moaning involuntary, my brain was blank. 40 minutes, whole body is shaking, I'm sitting in my desk chair and am now helplessly grinding on the toy doing kegels forcing myself to remember to fucking breath I'm desperately chasing... 50 minutes, my chest, tummy, balls, thighs are soaking wet with fluids but the pressure hasn't popped I'm being milked for everything, it's right there then pattern really started to hit me, slow, deep, strong, stronger pulsing from tip of toy the the base motor perfectly (kudos to that pattern creator) To the very last minute it got so deep and heavy the pressure was unbelievable I could feel the vibrations all the way through my cock and it FINNNNALY happened, hands free, and I squirrrrmmmmed, writhed, breath gone, knuckles white gripping on the arm rests of my chair as I came what I can only describe as a hentai creampie amount. My phone, behind me charging I panicked to get ahold of it to hit pause because replay was on and it needed to be turned off, I was way too high to let that keep going.
Wow.
If you made it this far and your also on the chase, don't give up.
I've been sitting here writing this for a hot minute now, my insides are still buzzing and I'm suffering from success. Gah damn.