My Dom is discussing collaring and the significance of that after many many years of on and off being his submissive. To him it's deeply symbolic and carries meaning. I'm not sure it was that big of a deal for me outside of playtime.
Would love to hear others views or experiences on this.
You've hurt yourself and will be away for months recovering.
It bothers me more than it should because I care about you.
The truth is, I've cared about you for years. I've gone through the motions of playing it cool, being your friend, and then not being your friend when you realized that we both got a bit too close.
You don't talk to me anymore. We pretend the other doesn't exist, even though the energy and pull is unrivalled.
You spent months knocking me down a few pegs at work. Starting a war with me you were never going to win. I tolerated it and we carried on. Seeing each other. Hiding. Saying hello every so often. Ignoring each other. Avoiding eye contact. Chatting about weather.
But this time you've been hurt. And I want to take care of you. But I can't. And you don't want it. And I feel useless.
Your replies to my offers cordial. Controlled. Indifferent.
You and I both know that we run deeper than the shallow way things have become. We used to talk for days about anything and everything.
I suppose I will exist in the shadows. I will pretend I am nonchalant and don't care either.
No one has to know how I feel.