u/Ok-Confusion580

Now I'm finally able to take my hung top, but I have a problem I think most consider a dream situation.

When I cum before my top does, what happens a lot, I completely close up. Which ends up with disappointing my top bc I didn't let him finish inside.

I stop myself from touching my dick to prevent cumming but I just can't control it. I tried not touching myself but then I cum handsfree what even feels better?! I love it but I feel bad bc I feel like I can't satisify my top 100%.

It might be because he is big and is able to push the right spot with every trust? This my first time having this problem bc I was mostly top in the past.

I know my problem is a dream for most but I want him to cum inside me. How do I completely close up after finishing. Help!?

I'm pretty much his only sexual experience so I know everything he's done. We fell in love pretty young, he is Bi and has only dated one other girl before me during his teens.

Bottoming was a struggle in the beginning because I'm small build and he is hung. After getting used to his thick 7,5 inch cock, I started craving being filled up by an even bigger cock. Realizing he made me develop a love for stretching my hole. I want to bring up him using a big dildo on me, but I dont't know how to start that convo. 🙃

I like the idea of big but fisting doesn't seem appealing to me. In the past he briefly talked about his dislike into ugly battered holes as a result of fisting. We both dislike fisting, for different reasons. And knowing this I'm hesitant to be honest about my craving for getting a toy or bigger cock.

Would you be mad if your bf asked you to use something bigger than him? Would you lose attraction towards him?