My first time trying MDMA ? with this DJ girl I'm seeing (I am no longer a good boy)
So she invited me to her place. We were smoking weed and then shen took a book that had some crystal powder on top of it . She told me it was "MD" so Im guessing that is MDMA. She said it was high quality and that I could either ingest or snort it.
I did not want to be seen as a good boy so I went nose dive on it. I felt like it was kinda harsh on my nostrils but it wasnt THAT bad. She told me "By the way , you might get very emotional or say things that you might regret tomorrow" .
30 mins in , she said "It hit me" . I couldn't feel anything so I started smoking more weed. After an hour , she was very very enthusiastic . Started telling me "I like you and it was not the plan" to which my replay was a dry "it's the drug" and she would say "nooo its not , i also thought that but it isnt"
After one hour I started feeling kinda warm. My face felt warm. My limbs felt kinda numb. I started feeling like my perception felt kinda "different". The bedroom was filled with a lot of trippy lights that she had in her bedroom. She put electronic music which I am not really very educated on, but I really enjoyed and she was enjoying as well because she was actually showing me the music she makes and plays at parties.
Then we had sex and we stayed up until 3-4 am. She wanted more so since there was no more left, she told me “lets lick the bag” which we did and then we kissed
We felt asleep and the next day I felt great. I really really had a great time. I really like this girl, but I know she is not for me so I will just try to enjoy a couple of times more or maybe just once more and then I will step aside, because I do not want to involve myself with someone who can hurt me on an emotional level.
However after this experience, I feel like I can trust this girl when it comes to doing drugs. I feel like she really wantsd me to have a good time and really cares about me feeling comfortable and safe.