20 [M4F] #INDIA #ONLINE-Embarrassing but I want to have a female friend who won't mind me having cuck feelings for her
So this is a big fantasy of mine..I have this weird thing for dynamics based on unhinged power gaps and one such fantasy that I have regarding this dynamics is a femdom emotional masochism sort of fantasy...
Imagining a scene where I would have a crush on a girl and she would know all about it...but instead of rejecting me...she would tame me...give me fake hopes...and use me as per her advantage. I wanna be that guy for her who won't be even to look her straight in the eyes cause in my eyes she would be a goddess in human form.
I want her to play with me and might even make me cry..but as I cry on the floor I want her to be standing there giggling and smiling at me, making me realise I am crying because she wants me to cry...she wants me to get hurt so she can get pleasure and at this moment we would be in this twisted yet romantic in it's own sense relationship... A relationship of a girl and her dedicated loser boy.
The boy who would walk her home in a rain with his own umbrella above her head while he drench in rain, the boy who would not mind doing her work as long as he gets to be near her...to have her praise and might even gifts and rewards here and there.
Imagine doing a girl's homework and as I give it to her she remove her shoe and take off her sock handing it me and with a big smile "wash it off by tomorrow", she would say...and at that point the only words coming out of my mouth would be "thank you" or "ok..". This is the kind of thing I find hot not gonna lie...a girl who would know how to toy with someone....a girl who would fuck around but ar the end of the day would come to her loner boy and comfort him with hugs and aftercare.