Gender dysphoria and guilt
I have been dealing with guilt about wanting to transition for… almost 20 years I guess at this point. I’m in my mid-30’s, married for 12 years, with three kids, and I’ve been actively hiding my desires for just about 10-11 years. When I was younger I explored a little, but got scared and and didn’t understand, so ran from it. But then as an adult and with a family, I felt the urges return and I understood them and began exploring. I was outed a few years ago, almost breaking my family, and I tried to move past it again. Well, here I am with a lot more confidence that I’m stuck wanting to be one version of me, while having to live as another.
I guess my question is how can I pursue this without losing everything? How do I get explore this version of me? Are there people out there with any advice on the subject?