u/IndividualRespond378

“deep down you secretly like being raped” bullshit. no i don’t and that’s the defeating the entire point. i hate it im terrified of it i dont want it im doing everything in my power to avoid having to experience it again. it’s traumatic and life ruining and existentially terrifying. i hate it and it makes me want to disappear and stop existing entirely but it doesn’t matter what i want because im too weak and defective to protect myself. it’s going to happen anyways and you should be getting off on how much i hate it. remind me over and over and over again what my place is. these horrible things keep happening to me because that’s the way things are supposed to be. i don’t have to like it. all that matters is that you do.