Sir left me
We got into a stupid argument cause i insisted that he'd do something, he made a comment i didn't like and then i got mad about it. The communication was very poor, i got angry easily and i made some hurtful comments about how "he's not the man i need" and "we should end it now so we won't waste our time". I regreted it instantly, cause i said all that without thinking, i'm very impulsive about my feelings. And i told him i didn't mean it, i appologized and i thought that we would just go back to how we were, but he said i already said what i said and that we need to break up. Which we did. Even tho i begged him to stay and not leave me. We were supposed to meet last night but since we broke up, that didn't happen. I got very drunk and i sent him a very long text, i can't build up the courage to read it again and i can't fully remember it but it was about how i felt great with him and he was different and i finally felt seen and appreciated. But i promised i won't contact him again cause i realized i was too pushy after he told me to stop insisting about getting back together. He read all of it and answered politely. I guess that was good bye. I feel so hurt and abandoned right now. It was a short connection, but he was everything i ever wished and i feel lost right now. Please tell me it will get better, i've been crying non stop for the past few days:)