u/Anime-lover_12

Hey hello im a 18 year old female new here! Since my teenage years ive had a rape kink. Til this day I think myself im gross and hate myself for liking it. Everything i think about it I cant help but feel aroused. Im scared that if I find someone I fall inlove with ill scared them away with what I like. I feel insecure and weird because of it. For those who have relationships how do you manage it with your partner?