r/realcucking

I (m24) and my girlfriend (f20) have been playing with the idea of her cucking me. When we first met she actually used me to cuck her ex boyfriend (he would send us money for videos of us) so I know it is something she is into. For her, she gets off on humiliating a cuck and making him "pathetic" as she calls it.

The thing is, now she wants to make me a cuck. She is very clear that she would only want to do that if its something I'm into, and its not something she needs to be happy with me, which is really reassuring. The problem is, I don't know if its something I want!

When we have sex, we will roleplay a lot and she will dirty talk to me about turning me into a cuck, and this drives me crazy! She sometimes makes me wear a strap on to fuck her to make it more "real" and I love every second of it. She has even made me watch old videos of her well endowed ex fucking her while we have sex.

However, I am worried I am more into the idea of being cucked than actually going through with it. The thought of her being fucked in front of me as a way for her to humiliate me does turn me on a lot. But I am also really scared that this could ruin things for us outside the bedroom.

What if the other guy is bigger than me? How will it make me feel? What if I realize I'm not into it but its too late? All of these questions and more are making me second guess things.

For more context, I am a sub leaning switch and she is a dom leaning switch, I'm about 7 inches on a good day, and we have been together for about 4 months and are very in love. We have been talking to other girls and had a couple threesomes but apprehensive about including another man.

Any and all advice would be greatly appreciated! Also my DMs are open to anyone who wants to talk more :) thanks!