My descent from sigma success to beta loser
Sure I'm successful, stylish, owner of multiple properties and have built a name for myself in my occupation. Sure I have a ton of friends, lots of loved ones in my life and seem to have it all on the surface but deep down something was missing. there was a need that was there, an itch never scratched fully. My owner saw the signs already- this slut loved humiliation and he was right. It was my first big public task as a blackmailed toy, there was multiple layers to the task.
1.) there was a time limit and the date was close so I had to go find a sex shop in the city to get the toy.
2.) this had to happen after work since that was the only time for me
3.) i had to do it in a fitting room so i found one in a crowded area
The task was simple, buy a dildo (i never owned one before) and fuck myself with it in a fitting room. I had on an obnoxious suit on this day, I was very high and drunk all the time during this period in life two years ago and this was just my thing i got into.
I wandered into the sex shop, obviously not sober and just stared at everything inside frozen by the fact i was the only woman inside and everyone was staring at me because of my outfit AND the fact im a cute girl. in the shop there was a line to the back of room with porn playing loud and another guy in a suit, who was in the line (for what i think was a glory hole) made eye contact with me and i looked away shyly.
My pussy was so wet being in there, I really like the shame and embarrassment I lacked inside and that the only thing throwing me off was making eye contact. I know I should feel shame for being so dirty for being there ALONE, but i really feel nothing but arousal.
Anyways, I finally got what I needed, along with some magnums since i had nowhere to clean the dildo and then found a store.
I wont say what store but there was something humiliating about a store i frequented and using the fitting room to fit a huge dildo inside myself and fuck it for my owner instead of trying on clothes to buy.
I had to use two hands to stuff it in, at that time I wasn't having much sex because my ex would never fuck me. i also didnt own any toys since i usually just rubbed my clit for two mins and cum fast. so it was hard to put in and it took a couple seconds and deep breaths to push it inside
I had to physically close my mouth to not moan loud. my spine tingled up and down and i was so turned on even my asshole started to throb in a needy manner.
I creamed out gushes of fluid but didnt cum, i wasnt allowed to. Once I couldnt take it anymore i shakily pulled my clothes back on and took an after photo. it was obvious i didnt have the energy for proper grooming after that. my little purple tie hung lose from my neck and my hair was a mess from all the sweat that made it frizz. my pussy was sore from being stretched larger than it ever had been and i began my shameful walk back home.
That night my owner gave me two gifts. A good girl compliment and the chance to act out like the beta i am deep down. Like a mindless animal hungry for dick and desperate puppy whore who lives to please her blackmailer.
That day was a turning point, more public humiliation tasks, more beta behavior. Now I'm so broken that I want to be a sex slave forever. I want to be a puppy girl for the rest of my loser life no matter how successful i am no matter what dumb power suit i put on or how many raises or promotions or degrees... im just a little slut puppy blackmailed into brainless affectionate subservience
