Hubaderang pasyente
Narealize ko lang to nung sinabi ng lola ko na dapat daw nagbra at shorts man lang ako habang nakahospital gown kasi apparently, hindi pala normal na wala kang pake kung nakita na ng nurses, doctors, residents, interns, at kung sino-sino pang staff yung katawan mo.
Maybe it’s because pagod na pagod na talaga ako that time. May injuries ako sa limbs ko tapos nakaswero pa, so honestly my only goal that whole week was survive the day and heal quickly kasi bitch had to work and buy luho!
Or maybe because healthcare worker din ako, so alam ko naman na wala talaga silang pake. They’ve seen bodies hundreds of times already. Another patient in a loose hospital gown probably doesn’t even register in their brain anymore.
Or maybe because I used to post nudes here on Reddit. Sooo yeahhhh, probably all of the above.
Hindi pa nakatulong na sobrang luwag sakin nung hospital gown. Hindi ko na pinatali yung ribbons sa likod kasi ang hassle. Nakahiga lang naman ako ng halos dalawang linggo. Tapos paminsan minsan naglalakad lakad sa room. Most of the time ako lang din naman magisa dun kasi lola had to go home a lot to take care of my baby cousins.
May times din na may papasok na resident habang nagbibihis ako or habang tinutulungan ako ng nurse magpalit. Hinahayaan ko lang silang pumasok. In my head kasi professional setting naman yun. Feeling ko lahat ng tao sa room na yun pagod na pagod na din to even give a fuck.
Ang funny lang kasi libugin ako as a person pero zero sexual thoughts talaga sa situation na yun. Like completely wala.
Meanwhile my poor conservative lola in the corner:
"Nak di ka man lang nagbra??? Kita dede mo."
Doon ko lang narealize na baka nga weird ako kasi sobrang unbothered ko.
Anyway ayun lang. Random realization habang nakaconfine na ngayon ko lang nashare because I had difficulty moving my fingers and wrist after surgery. Still in PT but yay progress.