Frustrated.
I’ve been with my fiance for 9 years this summer, and admit I was a terrible bf the first few years so it is a miracle we’re even still together.
we have sex like 2-3 times a year at most. what frustrates me the most though is most mornings I rub her back, and through out the day I rub her back. high effort, elbow full body weight pressing down.
this morning I asked her to reach back a rub my morning wood, and she refused like always.
I don’t like rubbing her back at all, but I do it because I love her and it makes her feel better, but feeling entitled back rubs 4+ times a day for 10+ minutes at a time without ever reciprocating how I would like is getting old and I am close to demanding a quid pro quo of a rub for a rub.
I know she loves me, but this situation so fucking frustrating.