Scared to be me.
Im 29M, I grew up with very conservative parents and now im married with two kids. My wife knew I experimented when I was younger. My first time was with an older man who just gave me a blowjob and it literally scared the shit out of me. After that I only ever hooked up with trans girls. lately I have been craving being with a man. I think about it every day and now gay porn is the only way I can get off while masturbating. I love my wife and I always want her but the thought of being with a sexy little twink drives me crazy! I have logged into Grindr but that app is so dry and I can never really find someone im attracted to on it. Plus im not sure how to bring the conversation up with my wife. Is all of this just hot in my head or should I try to find a cute guy to explore with?