I'm looking for insight on a collar issue
I am married to my dom and have been for 8 years. 8 days ago (on our anniversary), I was in a 4 wheeler crash and ended up in the ICU. They cut my clothes off and I was fine with it, I can get more clothes.
They took my wedding ring off cuz my fingers were swelling, and I was fine with it. Sir could hold onto it until I could put it back on.
But when they told me they were gonna cut my collar off I immediately started crying. No one touches my collar not even me. He bestowed the collar on me and it has never left my neck except for him removing it for cleaning monthly and bestowing it again. He was in the room and saying it was okay to cut it and that it would be fine because it was a safety issue but I felt like I failed. I hated myself in that moment. Has anyone else had a similar situation happen and how did you forgive yourself or get past it? I'm just looking for insight.
Sir has already purchased a new collar for me and will bestow it when I am well again and it is safe to do so. But I don't want a new one. I want the shame of ruining the original to go away.