Almost has sex with my rakhi br@ther. Conflicted now!
So throwaway for obv reason, I(20F) have known my next-door neighbour (22M) for as long as I can remember. We were best buds growing up but grew apart a little since he went to college in another city, and also he s in a relationship with this really sweet girl there.
He liked me when I was in 10th grade, but I turned down his offer since to me at that time it felt very wrong and I have been tying him rakhi ever since. Its not that i dont find him attractive, ill find him hot in any case.
This long weekend he came home and we were hanging out at his place , watching god knows what and his hand touched my thighs completely out of accident but idk what got into me that i intentionally tried again that this happens.
It was notable to him after a few brushes and in my defense he also didnt stop infact went onto my inner thighs . By this time sexual tension was already in the room with us . We made eye contact and woah we started making out . After some time i was on top of him, dry humping.
His hands went into my undies and I was embarrassingly wet. He started fingering me. We were in the middle of that when we heard a knock. That is when we came back to our senses and I left soon after that. I came home and deactivated my socials. He tried calling me but i blocked him idk the guilt is too much for me to handle yet I want to have him all to myself. But I also dont wanna ruin our relations.