u/MeatZealousideal3967

I am 23M. Im a loser and a virgin, i dont have many friends. One night my mom comes into my room and goes off on me about how i wasnt going out on a friday night and how i cant just be laying in bed scrolling on my phone.

It made me kinda depressed and lonely. So, i hop on reddit and post in multiple places. Eventually i find the DL subs. I post and immeditely get a few offers. I wasnt super convinced i would go, but he was super chill and eventally changed my mind. I drove to his house behind the college in mcallen (i was so scared about getting robbed at this meet i left all my cash amd cards at home except for a cashapp card with $50 lmao)

I walked into his house and he knew i was nervous, he asked me if i wanted to go buy some alchohol to make it easier. I left and sat in my car for about 10 minutes thinking i shouldve just ran.

I come back a little while later with alchohol and begin drinking. He could tell i was nervous so he just said: " close your eyes"

He came up to me. And grabbed my hands, and let me grab his butt. After a little bit he brought me over to the couch and i took my pants off. I jerked me off a bit before sucking my cock all sloppy. He honestly seemed to be having fun while doing it while i was sitting there, Sexually confused. He sucked my cock for about ~45 mins until i came. This was the most ive ever came in a single load, and he licked it off my thighs and stomach. He asked to kiss me, but i refused. Then he made a joke about having cum on his lips and my dick in his mouth. I think he expected me to give in, but i didnt...

Now I dont know how to feel, i still get lonely sometimes and browse the Rgv4rgv and DL subs thinking about that experience. I dont know if im willing to try it again, but then again sometimes i just think to myself. "What if"

That is how i ended up now questioning my sexuality.

What would you do in this situation?

Dating apps?

I had a gay experience and idk how to feel