Hi all. I fucking hate myself. I don't know why I'm on here. Is this gonna fill the hole in my heart? No. I don't even want to be body shamed. I'm gonna starve myself tomorrow. I want to die. I want life. I'm a survivor of SA and abuse and I'm hypersexual. I'm tired. fuck.
Please send me one or you can comment it here if it's allowed. I just need to spread the love.
Women can be just as fucked up as men. But they'll do it in subtler ways. I was on an app discussing the pain of my trauma. How my ex abused me and hurt me. He beat me, forced me to do sexual things on cam for money, called me horrible names and contributed to my eating disorder. I thought I would be safe talking to another woman about my sexual assault and the times men have hurt me.
Women stand up for other women, right?
No. She told me that I should get with him again. That I should apologize to him. And that's the thing, nothing breaks me so much knowing there's women out there who would fawn over my abuser for the things he did to me. That some woman is out there falling in love with my ex. He is probably telling her how much of a cunt I am (he always called me that) for leaving him and breaking his heart. And she will love him. And the ironic thing is that she probably won't get abused like I was. He will treat her so special.
It hurts so much when another woman betrays me 🥺, sides with my abuser. Or glorifies it and sexualizes it. Nothing hurts me more.
I don't know if this is too dark. Well, the post romanticizes mental illhess so I'll go for it. I'm pretty broken and fucked up. have BPD and I'm extremely clingy and attached, I have an eating disorder and depression and anxiety. I self harm and sometimes want to die. The great irony is that I work for a suicide hotline.
I have a long history of trauma. I have been in multiple abusive relationships that were very violent. But blame myself a lot for them. I'm not a pretender or a kinkster. I'm just the real broken thing. Someone you could abuse for real and do illegal things to, and someone who wouldn't report you. Someone you could kill inside and who will come crawling back to you with love. I know this because when my abusive ex beat me, l'd cry in his arms. So that's what you're dealing with.
Hi all. I'm a woman who is into this, and I've been into this for a long time. I've psychoanalyzed my fantasy and I think it has to do with the fact that I've been abused by men and I'm a survivor of sexual assault. So, naturally it makes sense to fantasize about the source of men's virility and... manhood being taken away. Like the very *essence* of a man is gone. I love discussing ideas of how it should be done, depictions in the media, and stuff like that. I'm not into consensual castration fantasies or stuff like that, I only have it for men who abuse women. He has to NOT want it. He has to be screaming and sniffling and begging. I guess it's a way for me to process my own trauma and anger and helplessness. I'd love to talk to someone about my fantasies ❤️.
Hi all. I'm a woman who is into this, and I've been into this for a long time. I've psychoanalyzed my fantasy and I think it has to do with the fact that I've been abused by men and I'm a survivor of sexual assault. So, naturally it makes sense to fantasize about the source of men's virility and... manhood being taken away. Like the very *essence* of a man is gone. I love discussing ideas of how it should be done, depictions in the media, and stuff like that. I'm not into consensual castration fantasies or stuff like that, I only have it for men who abuse women. He has to NOT want it. He has to be screaming and sniffling and begging. I guess it's a way for me to process my own trauma and anger and helplessness. I'd love to talk to someone about my fantasies ❤️.
Hi all. I'm a woman who is into this, and I've been into this for a long time. I've psychoanalyzed my fantasy and I think it has to do with the fact that I've been abused by men and I'm a survivor of sexual assault. So, naturally it makes sense to fantasize about the source of men's virility and... manhood being taken away. Like the very *essence* of a man is gone. I love discussing ideas of how it should be done, depictions in the media, and stuff like that. I'm not into consensual castration fantasies or stuff like that, I only have it for men who abuse women . He has to NOT want it. He has to be screaming and sniffling and begging. I guess it's a way for me to process my own trauma and anger and helplessness. I'd love to talk to someone about my fantasies ❤️.