Need advice about my mom
Okay i can’t for the life of me understand if im being weird or there is something here. Help me figure this out and what I should do next please.
TLDR: how should I progress I want to know if my mom wants to do something with me.
I’m trying to be as concise as possible.
So basically I’m attracted to my mom, and I think there is something there but it’s hard to figure out what is my imagination and what is real, I’m gonna list instances of where something happened where I went hmm.
When I was like younger I slept in same bed as my mom, and I woke up with a boner, my mom noticed and pointed it out and I was shy so i tried to play it off with “everybody does this, and started stroking it, and asked if she wanted to try” she just left. And i felt so awkward.
Then later on when I was one year older we were sleeping in a cabin two beds and I think I got a boner and started stroking it, and asked if she wanted to try, I don’t recall her answer, it was awkward and I left for a walk.
When I was maybe 1she came into the shower and said she wanted to see my penis, how much it had grown, I was shy but I think I showed her. I don’t remember if she had a response.
Then some years ago I was probably 4 years later I was standing in the kitchen and she casually told me how horny she was, and I said I wish I could help her.. but she just left the kitchen without saying anything.
When I was maybe 20 I had taking some pictures of me fucking my then girlfriend in a couch at my moms, and I had saved the picture in a hidden folder on a laptop, which I had given to my mom. And one day I was sitting at my moms in the living room and windows started showing a screensaver slideshow and some of the pictures where those. And I felt a chill and hurried deleting them. But I realised she must’ve seen them many times. As far as. I remember.
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