[31M] Still thinking about this 10 years later
I feel like I have to share this here because I keep thinking of it.
Roughly 10 years ago, I M21 at the time was living in a shared living situation during my first years of Uni. One of my roommates moved out and a young girl moved in as the replacement.
She was probably 19 at the time. Not really my type. Skinny, shorter than me and quirky. I didn’t think much of it.
Shortly after she had moved in, we had dinner together one time. I had a girlfriend and had made that abundantly clear, so again didn’t think much of it. As the evening progressed, she kept bringing sexual and kinky stuff up. My 21 year old self conscious brain didn’t catch the hints at first but she kept pushing.
We didn’t do much that evening besides eat and talk but this evening marked a pivotal moment I didn’t know yet.
As the months progressed, she kept pushing“bumping into me“ when I went to the kitchen to make food or when I got to the bathroom.
She sometimes would come into my room and we watched movies together and I noticed her getting closer and closer every single time.
First she started touching my arm at inappropriate times for just a bit too long. Then her hands on my thighs while we were watching a movie.
She’d look at me just a bit too long each time and I tried to reiterate that I was taken but she didn’t care.
Then one night, I got home very late. Went to the kitchen for a midnight snack. When I just closed the fridge, I noticed that she had come in and I could feel her hand roughly grabbing my ass. She was rubbing it up and down and starting to push it into my pants to grab my ass better.
I froze and didn’t know what to do in that moment. I felt how I got real hard real fast. Much faster than usual. I didn’t say anything. Didn’t do anything to stop her. It felt wrong but so good at the same time.
Her other hand wrapped around my belly and her other hand started slipping into my pants, grabbing my cock and massaging it, rubbing until and down with just my underpants between my throbbing cock and her hand.
I remember how I stopped her and pushed her away. I rushed to my room and went straight to bed, not knowing what to make of the situation.
I never told anyone about it.
The next days she came into a couple times while I was in the kitchen. She’d always sit down, stare at me, basically undressing me with her eyes. Doing nothing else. Then after a while she’d leave.
It felt so wrong and I felt so abused, but I loved the rush of it.
Part of me wished she’d overpowered me that day and fucked my brains out and used me like her personal sex toy, while I would have been trying to get away from her mentally but my body not being able to resist her.
I’ve never told anyone. But I keep thinking about it, stroking to it and coming way too hard because of it.