I’m scared.
As the title says, I’m scared. Or rather, terrified. After years of going through the cycle of purging and coming back I’ve finally accepted that this is who I am, and there is no point trying to change that. Admittedly, that realisation have been incredibly freeing, but in a way it has also terrified me.
Before accepting myself as a sissy it was easy to write of my fantasies as just that, fantasies. But now it all feels real, and the urges to explore this side of me further are becoming impossible to resist. On its own that would be great, but I know that no matter what I do, I will never be able to completely be myself without completely destroying my relationships with most of my family, and that hurts, a lot.
Maybe some of you girls have some advice for me? I feel completely trapped😥