Can’t stop cruising
I’ve been with my husband for 12 years, our sex drives are polar opposite which started the conversation of my cruising (side fun only) we also agreed that if a fun thing popped up at a party then we’d be okay with it (again, only side fun) but we’d tell each other.
The first few times I went cruising I told him, I once went twice in one week & he didn’t say anything but I felt like he was annoyed. The issue is, I can’t stop cruising. Some weeks I’ll do it 4-days in a row. I love the thrill, sucking / being sucked etc. I’ve tried to tell myself ‘okay, no more for a month’ but then I find myself stopping by a cruising spot a day or two later. But I’m not telling him just how often I’m going.
The connection my husband & I share hasn’t changed, and the intimacy of our sessions is great & I feel no intimacy with cruising hook ups.
Should I be telling him I’m going more, am I adducted, the last week or so I feel like crap that I’m doing it but I’m always horny.