u/Accomplished-Fix1204

I don't think im bad at giving head, I try to be as outwardly enthusiastic as possible. I genuinely enjoy it, I can be a little flat sometimes when I focus but that's about it. I try to use my hand and mouth at the same time and sometimes I stop and lick the tip when my jaw needs a break. Last time with my partner I licked his balls because I was kinda drunk and I remembered something about it on TikTok. He seemed to like it and I liked his reaction but I don't understand it.

Like does that part even have sensation the same way as the rest? He asked me to do it again but I wasn't sure what I was doing made sense (and he was about to finish and we wanted to have sex but that was pretty quick lol). Should I start playing with his balls more during oral?

I know I love like the bottom of my left lip licked so maybe it's like that. I was so embarrassed one time when I came in like 30 secs after a guy started doing that. Are balls like that?

He went on this trip last Tuesday that I was admittedly bummed out about him leaving for. It’s pretty childish but I was like hoping he wouldn’t have a lot of fun so he’d miss me more. Kind of like an I hope it’s rainy outside and the food is crappy situation. Not that it’s okay at all that’s just the facts of what I was thinking

The first day the bracelet I made him broke. The next day he lost his room key and had a fight with his brother. He also hit his head on a table and most likely fractured his pinky. He got drunk (this is on him mostly tbh) and drunkenly decided it was a god idea to help this guy in the water and ended up losing his phone. His job got angry that he was on vacation even though notified them he’d be gone for a week and told his manager about it.

Like literally everything is going wrong I don’t even know what to say to be comforting. One or two things is just life, he’s like going through it on this trip for some reason and I just can’t help but wonder if it’s something I did since I’ve been very into manifestation and witchcraft recently